My dearest little Baby,
Mamma is very much worried over you. She has been having small drops of blood spotting recently and went to the doc for an ultrasound yesterday. She wanted to make sure you are okay inside and developing fine.
On the computer screen, that image showed a small coin shaped sac..your sac. But, the image did not show you. I am sure you were somewhere there, but neither me nor the doctor or your dadda could find you in there.
Where were you hiding baby?
The doctor finally said it is too early and that you were way too tiny to show up on the image. She also said, it’s either that or …or you might have left me without informing.
I know that cannot happen. I know you cannot just leave like that. I know you won’t. ..will you?
Mamma is very scared for you baby…and worries for you every single waking minute. Your dadda has been really supportive though. He keeps talking nice things to calm me down and assures me that all is going to be well. He thinks that I need to be optimistic and have positive thoughts, especially for your good. I agree with him and love him for that, but the worry doesn’t seem to leave me easily.
I have been asked to come for another ultrasound in 2 weeks, to see if you show up in that sac..to see if you were just hiding.
So, hear me out dear baby. Don’t scare mamma. Don’t hide, don’t be shy. Show up bright and glowing on that image on the computer screen next time. Okay?
In love with you already,
Your Mamma
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P.S : Dear friends out there..please keep us in your positive thoughts and well wishes. I need them very badly.
April 15, 2009 at 11:13 pm
Dear ,
Don’t worry. It will all be fine. Be calm and think positive. Everything will just be alright.
And yes, you have all my best wishes.
Hugs…
April 15, 2009 at 11:31 pm
Oh babe!!! Hug. Praying for you… will be waiting for news of the second ultrasound. Take care.
April 15, 2009 at 11:46 pm
My prayers and good wishes with you. All will be fine AHK!
April 16, 2009 at 1:34 am
Ersa, DewDropDream, JandM – Thanks much for the kind words and the wishes. Feels a bit better already.
April 16, 2009 at 1:36 am
Like the doctor said, it probably is just way too early for the little one to show up in Ultra sound. And remember, your worrying only going to worry the baby as well. So stay positive! Of course you and the little one are included in our thoughts! Take care.
April 16, 2009 at 1:42 am
NeverMind – Worrying won’t help..Yes, I realize that. I wish I could relax and enjoy. But the doctors words haunt me – This or That..
I’ll listen to you guys and try to stay positive. I have to. Thanks!
April 16, 2009 at 6:06 am
It’ll be ok…it is prob early to see the baby so don’t stress….
We’re all with you
April 16, 2009 at 8:30 am
Hey honey… The baby needs time I guess.. Remember last time u wrote that the baby was only 5 weeks old.. thats little.. So, make sure u go and take an ultrasound, surround ur self with positive energy and stay peaceful… The baby is urs to stay, it ain’t going anywhere without mamma…
April 16, 2009 at 5:27 pm
Oh, I’m praying that everything’s ok. Hang in there.
April 16, 2009 at 6:43 pm
Hi,
I have been reading your blog for quite some time but commenting today only. Went through the same phase and understand how you are feeling. But fortunately baby was alright and is nine months old now. Please don’t stress yourself, be positive and pray. Believe me, prayers have lots of strength and will help you in this distressing time. My best wishes & prayers are with you and the beautiful life inside you.
April 16, 2009 at 9:19 pm
I wish I could do something to make you stop worrying. You must have read enough to know that spotting is normal. I had no idea till I was 8 weeks along that I was pregnant. So its still too small.
And no if it was something else, you would have known, you would have felt sick…felt something…so this is nothing, just the start of a life full of worries over silly things. I used to make trips to the Dr just because I couldn’t feel her kicks..worrying is normal.
One more thing, the 40 weeks start from 2 weeks before actual conception. The last missed period is when the doctors start counting your pregnancy…actual conception happens 2 weeks after it. So you might be 6 weeks pregnant, the baby is around 4 weeks old..okay! still too small!
I don’t know if you believe in God or not but this is one of those times…just leave everything in His hands…
You are in my prayers.
Wishes and hugs,
August 28, 2009 at 1:57 am
Hello
I just happened to come across your blog. I am currently experiencing the same thing. Just this Monday I went for an ultrasound and got the same results. As of yet no signs of miscarriage thk God. I have to go back in 2wks very nervous, scared, and anxious. If u dont mind me asking what were your results
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Me: Hi Char. Good to have you here.
Congratulations!
How many weeks long are you?
In many cases not finding the baby on the first early ultrasound just means that the baby is too tiny to show up yet.
But, some cases like mine which is accompanied by spotting have a disheartening end.. I wrote it on my next post caled ‘Lost’.
Be strong, think very positive..pray a lot. All will be fine. If not, then just think that a better baby at a better time is waiting for you.
Sincerely hope you dont have to go through the heartache though.
{{Hugs}}
September 3, 2009 at 4:28 am
Thks! Im 7wks. Im so sorry to hear of the lost u endured. My husband and I pray daily!! I try to stay positive but as u know its very difficult at times. When I went to my 1st ultrasound the doc told me my progestrone level dropped and there was an empty sac and to return in 2wks. Sept. 10th will be 2wks. For the most part I been ok. No spotting but periodically I do have back pains. Still very scared and nervous. Thks 4 your encouragement.