It has been a while since I posted here and it was not exactly writer’s block. It was a plain refusal by the mind to write down anything else except the “BIG NEWS”.
For anyone who has been reading this space – Easy guess!
I am gonna be a Mommy! 😀
The last incident took away most of the initial excitement and cheer of a couple who finds out they are pregnant. It was mostly anxious and hopeful waiting.
This time, when I found out, I smiled with a few tears lingering..that never made it to the cheeks. There was joy waiting to bubble and burst..but held back and bottled up. We wanted to give nature enough time to decide whether we should be celebrating or not.
The last three months have not exactly been easy. The pregnancy symptoms were minimal – some nausea here and there, getting tired now and then. But, silencing that nagging little fear inside the heart was difficult..very.
Days passed on and there were no bad signs from where I could see. The first doctor appointment was nearing and I shuddered every time thinking of the possibility…doctor staring at the screen of that ultrasound machine and saying “Cannot find the baby. May be it has left”. I had no strength or courage to endure the agony again. No…
However, the prayers worked and nature was kind this time around. Me and the hubby could hardly believe our eyes when the doctor showed us a tiny baby figure floating on that screen! And then there was a heartbeat!! A little flicker..strong and steady..lub-dub-lub-dub-lub-dub..
We hugged each other right there in front of the doctor and there were no words coming out..just some happy gasps and teary giggles.
Our baby has made it this time..has decided to come to us, healthy and safe..
The prenatal visits and check ups so far have been fine. The last one was yesterday when I confirmed from the doctor that it was safe to announce our news to the world.
There is a long way to go until March 10 2010 (expected date of arrival), but it’s time for me to sit back, relax and enjoy the ride now 🙂
A little birdie from the internet told me that the baby is about 3.5 inches in size by now and already making tiny facial expressions – squint, frown, grimace and possibly sucking thumb! 😀 While the liver, spleen and brain are developing rapidly, the baby is busy sleeping or stretching out and curling the toes 🙂
Send your good wishes and some prayers this way people…the little one and the anxious mommy need it at every growing stage now.
Know what? It feels great to tell the news out here…it was as if I am hiding a big secret from a close friend all this while.